What is your astrology sign? (im scorpio)

!incels

I'm a pig, and I smell bad. Mr. Smuther is my God, and that's what he says. He's always right. I kiss his butt. I suck everything down into my guts. I never shit. My body's greedy, there's nothing I can do about it. I'm bloated. I'm soft. I weigh 349 pounds. I'm fat scum. I despise myself. I'm sitting here in the pink pajama bottoms my mom gave me when I was fifteen. They still fit. I hate them, but I wear them. They're caked up around the crotch with various foods that I dripped and old sperm that I never wiped up. My sperm's sweet.

A lot of that sperm's there now because of Mr. Smuther, so I like it. I like to break it off in chunks and grind it between my fingers thinking about him. Then I feel disgusted with myself, but I like feeling that way for him. I'd like him to take a shit on my face while I lay on the sidewalk and people crowded around and laughed. He'd point down at my face and tell them how I deserved it, and they'd laugh again in agreement with him. I'd feel good, I like to feel good. I like to touch myself, especially when I pretend I'm someone else.

Sometimes in a restaurant I lose myself, I forget I exist. I sneak my hand up under my shirt and rub it, along the hair that collects around my bellybutton. The hair is soft, like the hair on a baby's head. I get hot and I can smell myself. I'm being smothered in my own armpit, then I c*m, but I don't feel anything. I discover a puddle of sperm in my crotch. I hurry and pay, then I leave, afraid they'll notice.

I watched this movie with a friend (male).

I went in thinking I was going to hate it, but ending up thinking it was actually decent and reasonably entertaining.

Anyways, that's it.

heres the fricking rotation https://fsdfsd.net/rDrama/rDrama/src/branch/master/files/assets/events/fistmas/music

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I don't know how to cope with this I really need some advice. So just some backround information real quick. I am 22 and have been disabled for around 2 years now after Covid so I had to move back in with my mother.

Basically everything is explained in this first paragraph, lmao

My dad died ~8 years ago and so my mom currently has a bf. She is also extremely unsupportive of me with my sexuality and also constantly berates me that I'm making myself sick and it's all in my head.

Mom sounds based

So the main issue is every night she and her bf have loud s*x and he is always quiet but she is so fricking loud I can hear her with my door closed and headphones on.

YASS QUEEN. Mom is out here living her best life her useless daughter can't cope.

The responses are....well reddit-tier

Not at all, I'm sure this is covert sexual abuse. I'm sorry you need to experience this. :(

Not at all lol that's disgusting. Is there any way you can get disability benefits and not live with her? Or any other family members? A part of me wants to say tell her you can hear her and if she doesn't care start recording the audio and send it to the family gc lmfao

Ugh I remember blasting my music at night while I was in junior high school-college because of this. It's disgusting and honestly predatory in my opinion. I'm sorry I don't really have much advice, but I understand your discomfort and your feelings are absolutely valid!